I’ve had it the last few weeks. You could actually call it a complete block from everything not just writing. You ever get like that where it’s not that your being lazy (though I’ve had my share of those times) but rather you have lost your focus and you’re not sure what you should do or want to do? It’s been like that. I’ve alternated “thinking” about what my plan should be with feeling guilty for not doing things I know I should be doing and then getting confused because if I know I should be doing those things why doesn’t it seem right? Why do things seem so difficult? After much thinking on the subject I finally figured out it all comes down to attitude. You can have the best plan in the world but if you don’t “want” to execute it then it’s really a waste of time planning. With me it was a matter of my focus being where I felt it should be rather than where I wanted it to be. I felt guilty for working on the projects that weren’t going to show high returns today but that I enjoyed for the projects that were the big money but I wasn’t really into. I’m realistic and know we all do things we don’t really want to do but will get us a result we need (like a paycheck) but instead of looking at the stuff I wanted to do and looking at the long term investment of time I was allowing myself to get frustrated and not doing any of it.
I decided yesterday I was just going to have a fun day and not work at all. I enjoyed a pumpkin spice latte, enjoyed the cool fall day, and got some shopping in. I didn’t let myself think about the work I should be doing or how far behind I was. I didn’t expect it to fix my mindset but for some reason it did. Maybe because I didn’t have expectations? I woke up today feeling energized and focused on what I can do to reach my goals for the rest of the year. There is still a solid 3+ months left and the holiday season which will be great for me. Sometimes a break is all that is needed to get back on track.